Reflections of a wretched life

Hectic July

2009-07-04T11:31:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps... It's been ages since the last update.. And here it goes to my crazy July... It's packed with "fun-filled" activities and "interesting" meetings... No words can describe this July.. It simply blows me away..

1 Jul: Duty in office
3 Jul: Aloha
6 Jul: Duty in office, Conference in the afternoon and Aloha at night
10 Jul: Aloha
12 Jul: Aloha
14 Jul: Meeting at HQ
16 Jul: Aloha
17 Jul: TWKs
18 Jul: TWKs
20 Jul: Aloha
21 Jul: Aloha
22 Jul: Meeting at HQ
23 Jul: Aloha
24 Jul: Dinner with colleagues
25 Jul: Aloha
30 Jul - 11 Aug: Reservist

Incredible schedule yea?

2009-04-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

Once again, the TWKs have come up with the grand plan for this year..!!

Answering to Wans' call for a short trip, we are proposing a trip to the Indonesian island of BATAM! From our random calls, the response so far is not bad and we are extending the invitations to our TWKs in-laws..

Currently, things are still in the skeletal stage. And i've been appointed as the scout to recce the place... And for bobs, he'll be in charge of coordinating the event.. haha.. Otherwise, there's nothing much to do for now.. Pls wait patiently for the next update!!

Besides that, life's been fantastic for me... Everything is going on smoothly and there's even some unexpected results.. haha.. But work is as usual, a chunk of total madness... Piles and piles of stuff are waiting for me to look at them..

Wells, that's all for now.. Stay tuned for the latest update!! Cheerss

Recent happenings

2009-04-19T03:03:00.004+08:00

Life's been great recently.

Finally, i'm seeing some balance in my social life after setting my mind on reducing the number of outings that i had with my office peeps. Things are clearing up. And good progress is made.

Met up with the TWKs for the past two days. It has always been so comfortable hanging out with them and guess it's the only time where i can really let my hair loose after a tiring week at work. however, a regret is that wans is not able to join us due to the deadlines she has. Never mind, we'll meet up again before you leave for taiwan... I'll do the arrangements.. that's my promise to you guys..

here's some cool pictures to show u guys.. enjoy them :)

the one who failed to make it to the printer..

and the botched attempt...

Getting things back in order

2009-04-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

Recently, my timetable has been topsy-turvy.. I am very suffocated with the numerous activities i had for the past few months and honestly, i know that i've neglected others. Now, i'm trying to get my life back in order again.. Pls give me some time.. I am still trying to sort things out.. It's been a crazy month..

I'll do something about it.. Hope you will understand...

my apologiess..

Oldy Mouldy

2009-04-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

Back after a long long absence....

Wells, what can I say?? I'm in the mood to blog now!! Wahaha...

Work is starting to take a toll on me.. Not just the sheer amount of work that I've gotta clear everyday but also the numerous outings that I had over the past few months.. To be honest, I'm getting pretty drained out... A timely reminder from a friend brought me back to my senses.. For a moment, I was lost in the abyss; falling deeper and deeper. A gentle pull from a friend jolts me back to reality and that while I can try meeting up with everyone, but I'll just end up depleted and exhausted..

In addition, I'm no longer young and active as I was previously and all these outings have seriously taken a toll on me... Haha.. I'm aging... Oh gosh... While it is a process that can't be stopped, I will just have to hope that I'll age with grace and charm.. Wahaha...

Cheerios!!

A Happy CNY

2009-01-26T03:58:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! it's the time of the year again. for some reason, i dun feel excited about chinese new year this year. the only thing that i was looking forward to was the pushing and squeezing action at chinatown. This year, as usual, we went to chinatown to chiong all the 果冻s. the crowd there is crazy mans.. they are pushing and shoving everyone in front of them just to move forward.. poor wans and hq.. they were sandwiched between the stall and the crowd..
after getting the jellies, we went to 长江 for a drink and light snack... then off to tabs for a drink..

everything just felt so natural in a routine sense. we will know where to go and what to buy.. wells, it's a nice night well spent with the TWKs... it's a pity that we are always short of sheryl as she is away for her annual holiday..

nvm!! just hope she'll be able to join us next year!! haha.. pictures will follow soon... keep a lookout for it.. haha

HUAT AH!!

Eeeekk...

2009-01-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

It was a huge lift. Upon entering it, one could see the panel of buttons on the left side while it was a gruesome view on the other side. A dentist’s chair was placed there and on the chair, one could see bloodstains in the shape of a human body. At that instance, one could almost visualize an actual murder taking place and feel the excruciating pain that the victim had felt. Algae and moss laced the surface of the chair and signs of neglect were evident. It felt as though countless murders had taken place there. A decaying odour filled the air in the life.

It stopped at the fourth storey and the incoming sight was horrendous. Nurses were pushing in trolleys with blood dripping from them. In each tub, there were corpses of little infants who had bruises and lacerations on their little frames. And they were placed in a fluid that was being dyed red by the blood. At that moment, I wished that I wasn’t there at all.

After what seems like decades, I reached my floor and exited the bloodied scene in the lift.

And I woke up… It was all a dream. Such a weird dream…

Happy New Year!!

2009-01-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

These 2 weeks had been crazy for me...

A christmas which took place in a penthouse.. A trip that crosses the border.. And a celebration that was chill..

And all of these involve the same group of people. These 2 weeks seemed to make up for all the lost time that we had missed due to work and school. And now, a new year lies ahead of us..

May the new year be filled with tons and tons of fun and excitement. At the same time, everyone stays happy and cheerful.. Most imptly, must take a chill pill whenever time permits... Do not overwork yourselves..

Happy New Year!!

Cheerios!! :)

Accident prone

2008-12-06T02:42:00.003+08:00

Wa... Recently, I'd been very prone to small little accidents and just on Tues, this syndrome reached its pinnacle... Haiss..

I sprained my leg during my routine basketball practice and this time, it felt worse than any other sprains I had before. My whole leg was swollen and for a moment, I thought that I had either fractured my leg or torn a ligament. Luckily, it was neither. The doc says it's just a sprain. Thank goodness... And for this mishap, I got a week of medical leave and missed my OBS... Damn sad.. People gotta cover my work for me and I felt kinda bad also. I thought I will have at most 2-3 days of medical leave but for some weird reasons, the doc gave me a week's leave..

Wells, I hope my leg will be better soon so that I can continue with my exercise every week. If not, I'll be like a fat pig in no time.. haha

Work work work work

2008-11-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

Work is never-ending!!! there are tons after tons of work to do even after i had spent one whole day clearing my in-tray...!!

ROAR~!!

Working life is so much different from school. first and the most important of all, you are required to take up more responsibility as well as more independent.. things are no longer the same where lecturers will spoon-feed you. you are required to make more decisions and consequently, answer for your own decisions. colleagues and friends can only guide you along but they can never make the decision for you.. that's the difference..

i'm still trying hard to adapt to the working life and every now and then, i'm still being nagged by my mentor about me not reading up policies and doing 'research' before consulting her... but wells, it's a learning phase for me despite all this nagging and scoldings, i deserve them... what is most important is that i learn from my mistakes and i seriously hope that these will register in my mind...

i shouldn't grumble so much, i guess.. i shall persevere and hang on... hopefully i'll do fine during her three-week absence.. sigh..

a long awaited post

2008-10-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

work's been fine for me as i had just started working 3 weeks back and i'm just starting to get a little busy now. otherwise, work is, in fact, quite fun for me... i had joined a few "CCAs" there and now, my timetable is always packed especially when i have IPT going on this month. but 4 consecutive days of exercise are very tiring and the returns are diminishing as i couldn't let my muscles recover in time. haha..

i really don't know what else to write about already.. as i had mentioned before, i only blog when i'm upset and so, no new post signifies good news from me..!! hhaha.. cos i'm happy.. :)

sigh...

2008-09-28T02:12:00.001+08:00

things arent the same anymore...

a brand new beginning

2008-09-22T23:14:00.003+08:00

today is an important milestone in my life. it marks the day which i had entered the corporate world and fulfilling my thirty-year contract to the society. haha...

and i'm so touched that everyone is so concerned about my first day of work. thanks alot, my dear frenz...!

but for no apparent reason, i felt very tired today even though i did not do anything in the office today... all i wanted was to go home as fast as i can... seems like home is becoming a safe haven for me where i will enjoy the home-cooked food and notes of concern from the family.. hope i'll get over the syndromic state soon...

I am goggle-man

2008-09-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

My relationship with my nephew is kinda a love-hate relationship. At times, I hated him for all the nonsense and tantrums but at times, I had truly enjoyed the time with him. Let's talk about today...

We were bumming together and I suddenly jumped up with my blanket over me and said "I'm a vampire... Haha..." And almost immediately, he grabbed my blanket and imitated my actions. I went on trying to impersonate various characters such as Superman, Batman, pirate and the list goes on. When I went on to impersonate Jay Chou, he just conveniently wore my cap and tried to look like him. Here you go...

At a certain point, he even tried to be funny...

Haha... It's kinda random to blog about that... But wells, I just wanna talk about it.. hahaha

The coming of age

2008-09-04T22:58:00.004+08:00

Aging is often a term that draws frowns on faces whenever it is mentioned. It means that one is nearer to his/her death as well as a couple of health issues. Looking at the other side of the story, it also brings with it invaluable experience and life lessons. Since aging is inevitable, why do people still ponder about it all the time?

I used to hate it up to a point that I wish that I could stay young forever. This was such an utopian view and thinking back, I felt so childish then. This view could probably be back-dated to the days when I was reading Harry Potter books and I was so obsessed by it that I had always fantasied myself being a character in it. Wells, things have changed; so do our environment and I gotta move back to reality. Now, I embraced life everyday and enjoyed my aging for it means that I have accumulated one more day of experience. Life is so beautiful that one should age with grace and one should appreciate every little thing that comes your way. At least for me, that is what I am thinking about now. And I believe that this will bring me happiness everyday... (:

2008-07-18T23:53:00.002+08:00

Wells... Kinda inspired by someone to blog so here I am...

I had gone through the last stint of my varsity life and O week will hopefully be the finale. After going through these camps, I really felt much older... And upon looking at the fresh intake of students, I felt as though I'm in my freshie days; enjoying the games and cheers... everything felt so deja vu...

To admit, I seriously enjoyed these camps and I'm glad to have attended them though I've graduated. I've made new friends as well as building upon current friendships... but overall, i felt more fulfilling and that's my motivation for attending camps.... :)

just a short post today... haha

Can I have a beer?

2008-06-12T01:55:00.002+08:00

I know that you are caring for me but sometimes I just hope you understand that changes take time to take effect and I am making an effort. Nevertheless, I am glad that you are concerned about me. I am not trying to be funny or what when I repeat stuff. My memory is very bad and I am sure that you know it with your numerous encounters.
A brief update of my life so as to let you know...
For the first time in eight years, I stepped into the library to borrow books. A special book was chosen by me and that is about Harry Potter (I can visualise your reaction) for Harry Potter is all I read. However, this is not about the usual childhood fantasies that you are imagining. It is about multidisciplinary perspectives of the book. I will tell you more when I managed to find the book as my reading speed is very slow.
It was just a simple meal and you are making it sound like it was some wedding banquet. And I know that you are caring for me but things are just not right. So there is no point pursuing something that is wrong.
Pressure is mounting from every direction and I hope you will understand from my nonchalant attitude shown to you as the same words are being repeated to me every single day. I hope that you will judge me based on myself and not based on others; for others' successes do not necessarily reflect my failure. And be rest assured that I am doing something about it.
And sometimes I think I hide it too well that you do not notice it. But I do find myself on other occasions just that I find it hard to express when I am with you for my various flaws.
That is all I have now and I wish that it is the last one for the many years to come.

Back to reality and sorrowss

2008-05-31T02:09:00.002+08:00

Wells.. I'm back to face reality. The grad trip was a blast... It had been great fun all the way from Taipei to Taichung to Kaohsiung and lastly to Hong Kong. Life's been so nice and happy there. We had made some cool friends there too and had hell lot of fun... How I wish that I could stay there longer. Haha...

Once again, my flaw of being hesitant and indecisive showed again. Why am I such an indecisive person? I should reflect on this and hopefully, get rid of this bad habit. There won't be any progress if it continues this way. And hope you guys can tolerate such nonsense of mine. And if I really hit your limits, please tell me and I'll slap myself...

Beautiful Memories Part 4

2008-05-06T03:33:00.003+08:00

Alison's birthday celebration

The West Wing

Underwater fun

The Last Supper at Sheares

All these mark a small fraction of my memories in NUS and there are many many more in my lapppy...
Cheerios!

Beautiful Memories Part 3

2008-05-06T03:20:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year's Eve outing

Valentine's Day haps-ness

Sheryl's dance 3

Sheryl's dance 1

Sheryl's dance 2

Haha... Sorry for the messiness.. I'm just lazy to organise them.. :)

Beautiful Memories Part 2

2008-05-06T03:09:00.002+08:00

My first OG in my first Arts Camp

Second time as OGL for O Week

House I/Cs and OGLs (personally, one of my favourite photo)

TWKs reunite!!

Not forgetting the nights where we were rushing projects

And it continuesssss

Beautiful Memories Part 1

2008-05-06T02:56:00.004+08:00

These pictures are not all that I had taken over the 3 years but they sum up my happiest moments. Pls enjoy..

My first friends in NUS

My first time as an OGL (a handicapped one)

My first time as an OGL of O Week (was given this role by Bobby)

The ROP Camp but Weida, Jeremy and me are not in

The TWKs

And it continuessss....

A song to you, my dear friends

2008-05-06T02:12:00.000+08:00

If I were....

2008-04-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

If I were a robot, my world will just consists of commands and orders, coded by the numerous symbols and equations. My world will be much simpler. I will be a tabula rasa where my owners are able to program me to do whatever they want me to do. Won't that world be more utopian?
There will be no feelings, emotions, alienation, anomie, friendships, love, family, and many many more. How I wish I could be him... in a world devoid of feelings and emotions.

At the dark side of life

2008-04-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

These few days had been quite “sorrows”. For some apparent reason, I starting to feel so unconfident of myself and everything I did. Once again, I am slipping back to the old days that I’m perennially feeling down and out. Are things really going fine for me? Or is it that I chose to live in delusion? All the things that happened had set me thinking through my life…

As the date to graduation looms nearer, my future looks bleaker and darker by day. Oddly, people always think that graduation means freedom from all the loads of term essays and projects but things that lie ahead are worse. Instead of academic papers, you got to churn out reports and proposals and you are expected to perform to the very best due to the existence of the appraisal system. Mistakes are equated to deductions of marks and if you accumulate enough points, it’s out you go. Unlike the benevolent education system, if you made a mistake, usually, you will be given another chance. Wells, such is the harsh reality of the corporate world.

Confidence is seeping out slowly but significantly… L

Friendship vs Studies

2008-04-18T02:58:00.001+08:00

Fulfilling my childhood fantasies… Life’s been plain-sailing and in fact, too plain that has causes to worry about especially with the exams just looming in a fortnight’s time. However, this time round, I felt a bit more motivated to study compared to previous years for some weird reasons which I don’t know. Probably, it can be due to the fact that this is my last semester in school or that I’m just used to exams. But this semester’s being relatively fun and exciting for me. One thing for sure is that I’d met up with friends that I have kinda neglected over the years, as well as consolidating friendships that I’d fostered recently. There are always opportunity costs like I’ve kinda underperformed for my studies, getting mediocre grades and neglecting my studies. Oh wells, I think I’m getting a bit incoherent here… Just a short post today as I really don’t what to write.

Cheerioss!

Can I dream???

2008-04-08T02:36:00.000+08:00

Everyone had been through their childhood and often, during our primary school days, we were asked to write our dream and ambition. And indeed, we, as kids then, were allowed to dream of our future occupation and life. As we grow up, this prerogative was taken away from us. We are taught to be practical and dream of things that are within our limits. Usually, failure to do so will often lead to disenchantment or even rejection from peers. But aren’t we allowed to dream? Can we dream of something that is unachievable? Nevertheless, I do still hope that I can still dream as dreams bring me hope and hope brings life to me…

Difficult days

2008-03-30T15:44:00.002+08:00

Woah! Life's been busy for the past week. It's like totally hell for me. Just handed in one term essay which I couldn't have accomplished without the help of my bestie. And one more is due tomorrow!!! It's such a surprise that I can still blog right? Haha... It's this urge that made me blog at this moment when I'm supposed to be doing my essay...
This year has been a year fraught with difficulties especially in Soci Soc. Things are not going well and the existence of the society is on the rocks... Hais... Especially the publication where we're totally clueless on how to produce it. The hope ahead is bleak but somehow, I have this conviction that as long as all of us work together, we can produce a miracle!! It's all about the team effort. We are a team and things will only function well if we are united. Signs are showing already... We'll just have to persevere on!! Everyone's been helping out where ever they could and this is encouraging! Claryce and Wanling have been great help in particular with all the late night discussions and stay-overs... Haha... Coolness! We'll organise a movie screening session soon in our very own soc room (hopefully we can borrow the projector from the SW Soc, haha).
I know that it's the crunch time now and everyone is busy with their work. Come on! We can do it together. Together, we can surmount any difficulties. Such is the strength of a team! Jiayous!!! :)

Crunch time

2008-03-22T02:32:00.000+08:00

Once again, it’s midway through the semester and deadlines are pouring in. Essays and tests are all due next week and it’s all due to procrastination. Oh wells, it’s always the case. So let’s not brood over it, instead, more energy should be spent dealing with them systematically.

To add to the troubles, there’s still the job hunt going on. Pressure’s been coming from the family and no one understands my reasons at all. And I can’t be bothered to explain it and let it fall on their deaf ears. Till now, I’ve still got no inkling of what I should work as. The path ahead is totally in darkness and I’ve got to grope my way through.

It’s the crunch time now and hopefully I can survive without having to face a lot of sorrows and anxiety.

Come on, dude! You can do it!

Wow-ness

2008-03-09T13:18:00.002+08:00

Was working at the Mosaic Music Festival for the past few days, as well as next weekend. Woahh... Yesterday was good. Had singers like Daphne Khoo, Shayna Zaid, Andrea Hamilton and Trey Lockerbie. Definitely it was better than the previous night and it was the first time that I'd seen such a big crowd at the area. Haha... In particular to Andrea and Trey, they are great! Omg... It could be my over-reaction as I don't really listen to music in the first place. Come on down and judge for yourself! Haha... They'll be performing on this coming Monday at Esplanade, the Concourse which is the place where huge art pieces are being exhibited. Come on down. I swear it'll be a great night for you! Haha... Oh! It starts at 7pm, I think...
For more info, pls google Mosaic Music Festival and find out the details!

Cheerios!

Future?

2008-03-08T14:02:00.002+08:00

Months had passed since I've last updated this blog...
Basically, things are starting to change and the pressure to job-search have been mounting. At the moment, I'm really quite lost as to what to do for the future. Seriously, I have no inkling of what I should do. My only requirement now is that I don't want to end up in a cubicle (which I may end up eventually). As for the rest, I don't know.

Once I've told my friend that I might want to enter the events management industry and almost signed up for a job of the events coordinator. But he told me that in that ad, there's no basic educational level requirement which means that the starting pay will be quite low. Hais...

Everytime when there's such a decision to be made, I'm always at a lost.... ROAR... Hope my vision will get clearer in the coming days or weeks... I shall pray hard...

Future plans

2008-01-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

It’s been some time since I’ve updated this blog. School had already started and I’m into my third day of school. The timetable has been kind to me and I’m able to get most of my modules, with the exception of one, with ease. This was not the case for some of my friends though. However, this semester also marks the last lap of my 24-year long marathon with books and teachers. Come this June, I’ll be stepping into the workforce. Though with much reluctance, I will not try to escape from the harsh reality.

Thoughts have been given to future plans and I’m glad to say that I have kinda planned my course for the next few years. I will not follow the conventional route of going into the banking and finance industry. Instead, I will try for the aviation or the hospitality industry. I just can’t stand being cooped up in a cubicle and letting my mind degrade. This may be a general stereotype but I just can’t help thinking it this way. I will prefer a more vibrant and dynamic working environment and that there is to be at least some human interaction.

In the turn of an eye, New Year is coming soon!! We are able to see the New Year decorations up in Chinatown and I just can’t wait to go there someday before the eve. But oh well, I may still end up there on New Year’s Eve with the TWKs. Oh! Come this February, it will be the first anniversary since the formation of the TWKs last year… Time flies manss… Most of us will be graduating except for one who maybe taking honours. But fret not, though we may be graduating, we will still meet up right?! Haha…

Gonna miss all the university peeps!!! Cheerios!

Freedom!!!

2007-12-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

It's been some time since i felt liberated from all the hectic school activities..

time really flies... i'm approaching my last semester in NUS in a twinkling of an eye.. haha.. my exams are finally OVER! and there's so many things to look forward to during the holidays... most importantly is the Xmas chalet... and i'm going to look for waged labour to sustain myself... it's all the fault of capitalism la.. tsk tsk...

anw, had a good dinner with the TWKs and some of the freshiess.. it's been quite long since i went to town.. once again, the beautiful christmas decorations are up and the whole decorations are dazzling.. i could see some of them from suntec.. haha..

Thoughts

2007-11-09T01:00:00.001+08:00

life ain't always smooth sailing... one gotta think of what he's going to do in future and this is a time when he got to make the choice that will change his life.

is he going to live his life plainly? or is he going to live his life to the fullest?

should he burst out of the expressway of life? or just continue to oscillate within the boundaries of the expressway?

is the former an achievable goal or is it just an illusion that gives him hope? and more often than not, those who manage to burst out of the barrier are only a handful. can he be one of them or just remain as a dull boy who accepts his life and continue oscillating in the expressway?

so many questions yet so few answers.

perhaps, the answer only lies with the person himself or probably coupled with good luck and opportunity, he may just break through the barriers.

hope that he will not remain a dull boy and live his life monotonously.
let him be the one who will soar high up into the sky and spread his wings wide.

random-ness

2007-10-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

woah... like finally.. i'm posting something up here..

life's been great except for those never-ending deadlines and essays... recent weeks have been quite chill but the pace has picked up over time... the engine's gonna get started soon.. if not, i'll juz die on the spot... haha... been watching alot of movies recently (what i meant was old shows)... havent been hitting the cinemas for quite some time.. basically, i watch a show every night before i sleep.. hhaha..

i juz finished watching "Take the Lead" today.. it's some show by Antonio Barderas (dunno if i got the right spelling).. it's super nice la... it's some inspirational show which talks abt dancing... omg... i swear u'll feel like dancing la... it's like those classical dance eg rumba, waltz, salsa, etc etc.. haha... but oh wells, it's time to face cruel truth...

I CANT DANCE FOR NUTS!!

come on, qianfu... face it.. hahaha... i'm like syndroming now la.. hahhhaha... that's all for now.. hope that i will post another one soon... hahaha...

Troubled.....

2007-09-05T01:18:00.001+08:00

wheels of motion are starting to move and things are slowly but gradually changing..

'undercurrents' is the word today...

things might look normal on the surface but you can never know what is going on beneath it.... however, secrets cannot be kept forever and the more you try to hide it, the higher the chances that you will be discovered.. so remember, there is no such thing as "secret" and people will find out no matter what....

last wordsss,

a storm is brewing.... prepare for the showdown...

Mixed emotions

2007-08-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

Today has been a day of mixed feelingss..

Happy:-
The magazine is finally out!! after one whole year of slogging, we've finally seen the fruit of our labour.. this will not be done without the help of many many people. I would like to extend my heartfelt gratitude to all of you!

Claryce: for designing the whole magazine and putting up with my many demands.

Meiyen: for tolerating my nonsense and accommodating my requests most of the time.

Weida: for helping me to send emails and informing me so that i can follow up on them.

Wanling: for helping me with the camp marketing so that i can have time for the mag.

Reuben n Eileen: for helping me to compile everything and teaching me how to use InDesign. and to eileen, i wun forget the funny moments that we had when reuben left for his lessons.. hahaha

Harrison: for coming up with the articles which were so interesting.

Others: for giving me support whenever i need them and providing me with ideas.

On the whole, it's really great job done!! n i would love to work with you guys once again!! to be honest, after spending one whole year on this project, i've felt kinda attached to it and would love to stay on to help out for future issues... hopefully, i will be able to do so la and i seriously hope that i can do it..

Frustrated:-

honestly speaking, i was a bit frustrated earlier on. there was such clear distinctions and i wonder why cant we juz sit together and talk? but i'm alright after a while... think i'm juz abit impatient la..

And the following is thanks to harrison...

1. (the person who tagged you is) - Harrison

2. (your relationship with him/her is) - Friend/fellow Soci Soc mates/ fellow tailgaters/ fellow tehgaos

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - clever/dean's lister/smart/crappy/neat

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - planning the programme for the Sabo nite and executing it beautifully....!

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - eh.. i cant remember.. cuz of poor memory.. ha

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - flip in my bed... cuz i'm not a homosexual.. :)

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - be more chill than ever

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) -surely lose to him when it comes to arguing...

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - i niao him too much until he cannot take it.

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - find him a girlfriend

11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - style, neat n cool!

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - super crappy and i'm the forever chilling guy in the whole world

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) - cheerful?? or the chillness??

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - the inability to cope with pressure

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - myself. i have always believe that i shld juz be myself and i shldnt change myself to fit into pple's lives. i am the one i am and u shld be able to accept me for who i am.

16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) - thanks for being my friends and stay happy and chilled!!!

17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)

1. Jeremy
2. Big Serene
3. Wanzz
4. Ah ma
5. Bobs
6. Vanessa Chang
7. Charissa
8. Xiaofen
9. Sam
10. HQ

Quiet Saturday

2007-08-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

Heyo! Suddenly feel like blogging and here it goes...

Today's been a quiet day and I spent most of my time at home... Strangely, i'm always out during the weekdays but on weekends, i'll always find myself at home.. haha.. on weekdays, my mum always hope that i'll be home early and hopefully eat dinner at home while on weekends, i hope to eat dinner at home but she's always out... haha... so ironical...
Spent quite a bit of time today reading the final installation of Harry Potter... due to my slow reading speed, i haven't finished the book yet... and i'm not even three quarters through.. haha... after indulging in the magical world of harry potter.. i went to watch soccer alone at Brekos..
Why am I alone??
the answer is simple.. i cant find anyone to watch with me... i've exhausted all the possible soccer watching kakis and even tried those who dun watch soccer... the efforts were futile... haha... so i ended up alone... wanted to go to Walas but it was so packed that there were not even 1 seat for me.. so went to brekos instead...
the match was Sunderland vs Liverpool... being a sunderland fan, i hope that they will win but the goal at the 33th min, my heart sank... there was a clear difference in quality between the two teams and liverpool's superiority was evident.. so the final score:

Sunderland 0 - 2 Liverpool
(Sisokko, Voronin)

after the final whistle... i juz headed home and here i am now... blogging abt it.. hahaa

no doubt i was alone.. but i felt at peace throughout the day... it's been long since i've spent time like that alone on a saturday night... haha... it's so tranquil and quiet... haha...
so yup... it's been a nice day..

take care peepsss... :)

Arts Bash

2007-08-19T05:45:00.001+08:00

Hey!! it's been an eventful night manzz.. haha.. juz reached home...
arts bash was really a blast... haha.. there was the fireworks display as well as the pageant... and sarah won the pageant... after the bash, it's like really the finale of this year's FOP and i'll be looking forward to the next MC.. hahaa...
it's like the first time i sent drunk pple home and it's like very seh to send them home la... hahaha... faintssss... that's the reason y i'm still awake now when i'm supposed to reach home at least 2 hours earlier.. haha.. however, i cant leave my frenz in the lurch.. so i sent them back before walking back myself... haha...

it's really a happening nite..

Cheerios!!

stress management?

2007-08-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

the first week FINALLY ENDED!!!

it's like how busy for the whole week... i'm rushing like mad for the magazine and was trying to put up with those boring lectures... and trying to ask favours from everyone... arghhh.. it's a terrible week!!
sorry for mia-ing for the whole week and not joining you all for lunch... i'm really sorry.. but this week's been very busy for me... i'll make up for it in the coming weeks k?
seriously, sometimes i dun even noe wad i'm doing la.. so yea..

n i love all of u...!!

Recollections

2007-08-15T10:29:00.000+08:00

Was reading through my previous posts last nite and was greatly amused by the ever-pessimistic tone of my posts. never had i known that i'm so pessimistic and depressed previously. but guess i had changed back to my old chirpy self, coupled with my lame jokes and "not funny" jokes.
hmmm.. life's been great recently and i am feeling veri happy!! after leading 2 ogs, i'm starting to feel young.. haha.. as if like i'm a freshie also.. watching then having fun, chit chatting abt lessons, bitching abt pple, reminds me of my freshie year. haha.. it juz seems like yesterday la.. hahaha.... so so hapssss...
for some apparent reason, i feel that i'm closer to my tartarz group than my tehgaos... probably it's the bond that's shared amongst us ba.. since we stayed together for the whole of arts camp and i guess that the bond is stronger ba.. or that i'm jaded from all the camps as before o week, i've gone for at least 2 more camps and the feeling isn't good... physically and mentally, i'm quite tired during o week and it seems that i'm juz going through the motions.. haiz.. these are probably the reasons why i din perform as good as i'm during arts camp ba.. in a sense that i'm not as close to them... but i think it's alright la.. cuz i'm going to graduate in a year's time and wad's impt is that harrison and co will maintain contact with them.. and hopefully most of them will return for next year's arts camp and o week...
on a last note, i've got things to tell u guys....
i love you guys..!! i wun forget all of u!!
cheerioss

nostalgia..

2007-08-13T00:48:00.001+08:00

o week finally ended on saturday with rag as the finale... i felt that i was back to my freshie year when i saw my freshies enjoying themselves and chilling out together n playing games together...

it seems like yesterday that i was a freshie.. i was in Sashimi when i was a freshie and my behaviour was nowhere near to how i behave now during camps... i was quite antisocial and juz did the bare minimum but it was a complete new experience to mi. since then, i had made up my mind and decided to go back for the coming year's FOP... this was the turning point of my life...

i went for soci camp as an OGL but i'm virtually invisible during the whole camp... i had leg problems during the camp and i din really get to spend time with the freshies.. in my own opinion, i feel that i had not done a bad job with the OG as i still see the whole group hanging out together now... and that was my virgin attempt as an OGL.

i went back with my Sashimizz for O week but we're in Tailgate... we 'deflected' to T house cuz of bobby and i was arrowed by him to be an OGL.. i took on the challenge but ultimately, i think that i had did a bad job with this. cuz the whole og disintegrated right after the end of o week.. i was feeling so guilty about it.. n i started trying to keep in contact with the freshies as often as possible... in the end, i managed to retain some of them like serene, aaron, harrison, shu hui.. but i feel that i could have done a better job...

this year, i went for arts camp as an OGL again... it was my first time at arts camp and the experience is totally fantastic!! my whole group of councilors are rojak... it's like pple from all over the place, eg the 26th MC, sashimi, lacoste, tailgate... and initially, i think that our dynamics will be damn off.. but ironically, we clicked off well and we're like how tight... i really love this group of freshies and i sapped strength from them.. it was so amazing to have them as my freshies... and i'm drawing strength from my councilors and freshies... and without any doubt, we've won the best OG despite being the lousiest house...

last came o week... i was like how excited for o week as it'll be my last n final o week.. but the excitement died down after the first day and we're like facing challenges and stunts everyday.. the o comm is completely shit la... i believed that plenty of programmes are being cancelled with each passing day... and as the saying goes, "shit rolls down the hill", we're like trying to come up with contingencies everyday la... EVEN the finale is cocked up... who the hell will gather the whole camp in a carpark when there are vehicles coming in n out all the time... it's totally off la... damn that pig...
but i'm glad to say that i've got very good house ics n ogls... the other ogls are Anhong, Yenghong, Ching Feng and Doris.. we are like the tightest bunch of ogls in the whole camp la... with all the cheering sessions n the yohos extorting sessions.. haha.. it's really an enjoyable time with them.. that's the councilors part la... but on the whole, i tink my freshie councilors are alright only but... my senior councilors performed out of my expectations like Ambrose, Harrison and Rebacca... without them, i would have died halfway through the camp.. they are like taking care of all the micro management of the og while i'm responsible for cheering n stuff... haha... but on the whole, i think that TehGao is great la..!! i really hope that there wun be a repeat of last year's Tailgate and i hope that the freshies can stay together for their whole uni life, juz like jer, mi, yan, wanz, layz, jingyi, etc...

ok la.. enough for now first... losing the inspiration to talk liao... hahaha... nitezzz

O Week Excitement???

2007-07-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

hehhh... o week's coming... and bobs n wanz are like how excited over the cheers and stuff... for me, i'm like chilling la... hahaha... (wad's new?)

BUT....

the BEST has yet to come... hahah... cuz qianfu haven't chut power yet.. hahahaha... here's a pic of TEH ONG!!!

My last and final O Week

2007-07-27T03:21:00.000+08:00

life's been great for the past few weeks albeit tiring...
there's the arts camp in which i won the Best OG...
there's the soci camp in which i'm part of the organising committee for the first time...
n next week, i'm going for my final O Week...
in 2005, i'm was fresh in NUS and went for matric fair with the company of my army pal.. and both of us signed up for O Week 05.. however, he left me for his hall orientation on the second day... leaving me to "fend" for myself throughout the whole week.. indeed, it was a blessing in disguise... never did i know that those strangers will eventually become my best pals in sch and at the end, friends for life... i'm so so glad that i've got to know you guys...
Some of them include..
Lays, Wanling, Alison, Jeremy, Tor Yuan, Jingyi, Junmin, JingJun,Vanessa, Angelin, Pearline, and many many more....

in 2006, i was "arrowed" to be an OGL for the first time in T House... at that time, it was Bobby and James at the helm of the house... and i feel that i was not mentally prepared to accept that challenge.. there was Tailgate... i will never forget you guys as you are my first OG... and thinking back has always brought me sweet memories...
some of them are...
Felicia, Zhiwei, Aaron, Harrison, Nat, Justin, Dicky, Serene and etc etc...
and it was during this time that i've got to know others better like Carol, Bobby, Huiqin, Ah ma, Sam...

and now, towards 2007.. as i'm stepping into my final year of education, i am going to be an OGL again.... for me, this means alot.... it means this batch will be my last batch of freshies that i'm going to lead... i hope that i will be able to help them find their best pals during their varsity life and foster new friendships...

*i dunno wad i'm talking abt as i'm like abit sei when typing this.. hahaa..

Cheerios to O Week 05, 06 and 07!!! haha..

Realization

2007-07-22T00:34:00.000+08:00

the best may not always remain the best... it's the adam road prawn noodles... in the past, i'll finish everything and drink up all the soup. it's damn nice... however, i went back recently and ate it again... but it was a total disappointment... the soup is nowhere near the standard. in all, it sucks... there's this great sense of disappointment and my heart is bleeding... i dunno why and how come it's this way... to be truthful, i'm quite disappointed to see that this is happening... is it that the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment???? or is it complacency???

ermmm... it's controversial...

but i really hope that things will be better in future...

Soci Camp

2007-07-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

now that arts camp is over, soci camp is up next and i'm proud to say that SOCI CAMP is progressing well!! haha...
considering that we've only started planning in early june, i'm really really proud of this committee. we've managed to get everything done nicely and now, only the minute details are left to finalise.. and finally, the magazine is coming out too!!
it's into the final phase of preparation already.. and we are not done with the compilation of the magazine!! shit shit shit... needa rush rush already... hope that we are able to finish it by sunday...

Jiayouzzz..

*pls pls come for soci camp!! it's from 17th july to 20th july.. u can come as freshies or councilors too!*

Back from Arts Camp!!

2007-07-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Woohooo!!!! i'm like back from arts camp!!! havent been updating this blog for damn damn damn long la...!!
till now, i havent even recovered from it yet.. the fatigue, the loss of voice and the neverending discussion abt the camp... but life's totally not the same after it... like there's some part that's missing from my everyday life...
there are countless moments of happiness and joy in this camp. and i am proud to say that " TARTARZ, WE"RE THE BEST!!"
in the beginning, i was very worried at the dynamics of the councilors considering that we were only acquaintances. but i was wrong.. the dynamics and the teamwork was superb! we've managed to make a clean sweep of the awards and this is really a team effort!
thanks to Kenneth, who was my AOGL and kept the spirit of the og high throughout the camp... and thanks to jialin, ting kuang, eileen, zhiwei, serene, aaron, layz, peihong, reuben for talking to the og and cheering non stop throughout the whole camp!! to be honest, i was quite surprised to see eileen cheering!! haha...
and ONE BIG THANK to all my freshies who were so spontaneous throughtout.. it's you gyus who drives me on everyday and providing energy to me! thanks alot!
but this camp also marks the start and the end of my varsity life. i was so emotional on the last day that i've almost cried.. it was so heart-wrenching to see all the pictures that we've taken together. we had fun as well as our downs... but we've made it through! i noe that i'm like talking incoherently now... cuz my points are all anyhow anyhow one...
now that i'm stepping into the final phase of my varsity life, i'm determined to end it on a high note... and i'm hoping that soci camp and o week will be memorable ones... but i'm sure to say that arts camp really rawks and tartarz, i will never forget you guys! u guys will be clearly etched into my memory...

I love you lots and lots!!! Muackzzz~~!!

Back...

2007-06-07T22:58:00.001+08:00

Hi... havent been posting for a longgggg longggg time.. ha... life's been cool manzz.. chilling all the way since the start of the holidays... finally something is coming out for soci soc... haha.. the magazine n the camp is coming up soon..!!! jiayous pple...

haha.. the skeleton is coming up for the camp and the we are putting the flesh into the magazine now.. haha...

Cheerios!!!

Lost

2007-04-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

i'm lost for words... down with a severe headache and an injured leg... and the exams are coming... arghhhhh...

Busy Busy

2007-04-02T03:00:00.000+08:00

havent been posting for a long long time... i had been damn busy the whole month la..!! papers and essayss... and tests as welll... arghh.. now it's exam timess.. haiz.. guess this pic will tell u how i am right now..

Wake up wake up!!!

2007-03-14T01:28:00.000+08:00

i've been so lethargic for the past few months... dun ask mi why cuz i, myself, dun even noe why... alot of things have happened for the past few months.. and several factors contributed to it..
first, it's the persisting problem that i've got.. that's the most serious thing that happened to mi and i think it's has taken its toll on mi with its recurrent nature..
second, i'm juz obsessed with my games and i could say that i'm glued to it... haizz...
third, guess it's in mi ba... nua nua all the way...
but i think i've come to my senses already ba... i wanna go back to myself once again.. to the same old mi.. n i think that no one had ever scolded mi like you do and i will take heed of ya advice...
thanks alot!!! you'll always be my bestie.. no matter wad happens... :)

Loner

2007-03-12T17:26:00.000+08:00

this sem has been a relatively quiet sem... there is a complete lack of social life within campus.. i've got not many chances to talk to people and even if we do talk, most of them are small talks.. all this sets me thinking...
is there no longer any more common understanding that leads to the awkward slience between us??
is there the lack of inter-subjectivity where we have different webs of significance and i'm the deviant one??
many many questions yet so few answers....

nevertheless, i'll still treasure them... there were times that i tried to give up but somehow or rather, it's hard for me to do so... i still love all of you no matter what...

The Redundant One

2007-03-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

LIFE FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ouchhhh!!!

2007-02-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

ouch... it's been long since I've got this again... and the truth often hurts... once again, it has been reaffirmed and I believe that things will no longer be the same anymore...
the truth is often cruellll.........

Miscomm

2007-02-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

seems like there's some misunderstanding between us...
crisis crisis...

The Gap

2007-01-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

time has been flying psat without even you noticing and i'm no exception... how i wished i have a time traveller and travel back to the old days where we are much closer and we are able to discuss everything under the sun...
apparently, it seems that the gap is growing and for some reasons, i find it hard to talk to you.. i really dunno why... things just seem so different and unfamiliar... and often, i will require a bridge in order to communicate better or rather, to keep the conversation going... hmmmm...
how can i resolve this problem..???

Things are no longer the same anymore...

You, You and You

2007-01-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

this is to you...
life's been interesting for the past few weeks and everything seems to exciting... it's always full of fun whenever i meet up with you.. all the "chills" that we had and the fun.. i'll never forget it manzzz!!! haha... this is dedicated to you..

this is to you...
thanks for talking and listening to me... i believe that 2 good friends are always better than a group of superficial friends right?? thankz for the words!! i'll remember it...

this is to you...
i dunno how you feel but i would want you to know how i feel.. but it's always so hard to say it out.. maybe i lacked the courage or i lacked the confidence... or maybe, i'm just plainly afraid to know the answer..

this is to those who know who i'm talking abt.. pls dun ask mi questions cuz i will not reveal their names...

Cheerios

Beautiful world

2007-01-20T03:46:00.000+08:00

Life is so beautiful and you never know what will happen. there is something that you can discover everyday and we are making discoveries everyday.
the night's been beautiful too.. it's always hard to take the first step and often, we are present with the choices and we gotta take the first step. after that, everything will just flow. guess it's always the case and i've always believe in reciprocity.
in order to have a breakthrough, we gotta step out of our comfort zone no matter what the results will be. at least you will be able to tell yourself that you've tried ya best. however, you may not get what you want often and at times, it's always the case. so no matter what, just try ya best..!!

Simplicity is good

2007-01-18T03:15:00.000+08:00

SIMPLICITY IS GOOD.

i've changed my blogskin since i think the previous one was too fanciful already.. now i just used the standard template. oh wellss.. i guess simplicity is beauty?? haha

i feel very emo these few days... guess it's because of the show that i'm watching... always watched until i feel like crying.. guess this is the one of the few shows that can managed to make my eyes feel watery... haha...

lifes been plain recently... though there's alot of activities, but somehow i dun really feel "satisfied". something is still lacking but i cant figure out what it is.. ha... dun care la... juz float through la...

2007-01-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

hmmmm... wad can i say???
it's been hectic these 2 weeks.. and i feel like i'm suffocating with all the work that i have..
everything is piling up and hopefully things will take a turn for the better next week..

i'm damn drained...

2006-12-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

HI!!!!!! havent been blogging for ages man!! haha... my internet's been down for the past month and finally got it back already.. haha...
but my hols been routine la.. been working since the start of the hols and dun really have a chance to meet up with frens.. haha.. only meet up with my sec sch frens n uni frenz... have been socialising much also.. haha... BORING HOLIHAYS.......
sianz sianz...

Back

2006-11-20T01:57:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! I'm back, all my dear frenz!! ahahahaha
havent been blogging for damn long la... haha... anw, guess everyone of ya are feeling very stressed rite? haha... mi too.. i'm struggling!! but nvm, we'll party once the freaking exams are over manz!!! haha... hang on!! 2 more weeks only...!! JIAYOUS!!!
life's been good for me recently!! haha.. all ups and downs ma... ups in my social life but downs in my academic life... shucks man.. haha...
anw, that's abt all la... remember??
JIAYOUS!!!

Cheerios!!
fu

believe

2006-11-08T02:18:00.000+08:00

believe and you will see it... the world is our imagination. the world is there for us to imagine... our fantasies, our dreams and our hopes are often build upon the beliefs we had in our mind. thus, believe and imagine and you will get what you had always wanted to get... trust me...

Wake up from the fantasies

2006-11-06T15:36:00.000+08:00

this period has been quite stressful and recently, i've just been handed a harsh wake up call. i feel so useless all of a sudden and was really wondering what i've been doing all this while. no matter how hard i try to console myself, confidence is just lacking and i guess it's the aftermath of that episode... guess i'm dying from the exam stress and yet i could do nothing about it. i've attempted to do work but things just cant seem to get into my head.
i feel so lost all of a sudden and my confidence level is rock bottom. the worst of all, exams are just round the corner and here i am, doing nothing about it. there's nowhere i can seek refuge in except for my own bed... and hopefully, my bed can perform wonders to my degenerating brain...
no longer do i harbour any dreams of going to the honours year and hopefully, i'll be able to complete my university studies at the end of 3 years. guess this will be the best solution.

fu

Bdae Analysis???

2006-11-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: July 31

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.
You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.
In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.
Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.

Your strength: Your dependability

Your weakness: You hate being alone

Your power color: Midnight blue

Your power symbol: Shell

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Depressed, Helpless...

2006-10-26T03:34:00.000+08:00

hiya...
my day went just fine... n i've got mixed feelings abt today... was quite happy today after spending some time with jer n ali.. alot of events happened during our short "excursion"... was quite fulfilling and as usual, we were like how wacky la.. haha...
but, the day took a turn right now... for the past few days, something had been stuffed up in my mind... yet i cant really put it in words wad it's abt... i just feel uncomfortable... today i finally realised that wad it is abt already... i think i'm too slack for school this semester already... my project is like how screwed up... i think if not for the tremendous effort by bobby n wanling, i think that i'll surely flung this proj one lor... and furthermore, my film essay is also like fuck...
i'm totally SCREWED la!!!!! DAMN IT!!!

2006-10-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Hey yos!!! this is a a post from Gina's blog... haha....

If you comment on this post,

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours

1. you always look like happyboy84.
2. stay with weida in the soci room for 1wk.
3. green green green esp your green brazil shirt with gold printing
4. i like your height. haha!
5. during soci camp when you bai ka-ing away and i kept asking you if you were ok
6. a gentle giant bear
7. are you richboy84? hahah
8. qianfu you pan tu you look like whoo!

haha... gina, i'm not RICHBOY84!! haha... i'm poorboi84... really really.. haha... what gives you the impression that i'm rich?? haha...

Cheerios!!! :)

Today's topic

2006-10-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

today's lecture will be on the topic of power. Power is the theme for the day.
power can be found anywhere. it is omni-present and one cannot deny the presence of power in any situation.
with power, you are able to wield control over individuals or even the whole society. thus, one is able to see the label of Cixi as the Dragon Lady. she was a woman with a strong desire for power and she would stop at nothing to gain power. in present days, these notions are also evident in the dramas and shows we see on tv. power is an influencing factor and thus, resulting in the hierarchical structure of the society.
who determines who has power?
hmmm... normally, individuals are being empowered to exert control over people. but first, how did they get trusted with power? there are several reasons to it.
1. your capabability
2. your flattering skills
3. your treachery
4. etc
thus, it remain subjective as to wad methods they used and it's up to people's interpretation. but in the end, only the ones involved are aware of wad kind of methods they used to climb up the social hierarchy.

Wa Biangz!!!!

2006-10-12T03:15:00.000+08:00

wa biangz eh.... this week is my HELL WEEK!!!! i'm going crazy from all the essays, projects, readings, etc. haha... i've never been so busy in my whole one year plus in NUS la...!!! madness!!
this semester is practically quite hectic. everything starts to accelerate after the mid term break and i always find myself either studying in the library or rushing here and there to do my work... argh..!!! this is completely opposite to what i had last semester... i am still enjoying life at this time... haiz... guess with seniority comes with extra burden and more work... haha..
i'm quite inspired to write essays now... dunno why leh... i've managed to finish my film and history essay in like less than 1 hour... aha.. total madness la...!!
think i'm going to get poor grades for this essay... haha... we shall see man...
haha.. think i should stop here before i continue my blabbering... haha... nitez!!

Cheerios!!!
Qianfu

diao diao diao

2006-10-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

recently everyone seems to be rushing... haha.. rushing to complete projects, essays, tests, everything n anything... haha... but i'm quite free here.. with no midterm tests after the break... then kinda felt left out like that... cuz it's hard to find pple for lunch and dinner... haiz... then on some days, i ended up packing dinner home to eat... sadz.. haha...
anw, things are getting into motion this sem... the train of work is gathering speed... haha... i'm starting to study and do research for my projects liao... so pleased... and i'm getting really excited over stuff in the soci soc...
finally, i've got to get wad i wanted in joining the soc in the first place... being the PD for the bazaar, n doing marketing for the soc.. i'm so pleased that i've got support from everyone... esp jono... he keep providing me with advices and reminders... n all these got me to start work... haha... yea...
havent been exercising man... haha... going to get fat liao.. haa... diez... :(
anw, yea!!!! jiayouz..!!! the sem is ending soon... haha... nitey nitey!!!

loves,
Qianfu

work work work

2006-10-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

hey ya..!! haha... work work work... recently got alot of stuff related to this word... haha...
first one stands for school work... tons n tons of work left undone... wanting to finish some but yet, no discipline to do so...
second one stands for my work... recently i'm not working at all lor... no jobs... sadz.. think i'm going to join the retrenched force.. haha...
haiz.. recently life's been busy... but i dunno wat i'm busy with leh... haha... trying to catch up with my readings... n trying to do some research on my projects which i havent touched at all... n trying to do other things... haha... this week flies man..
cheerios!!

Feeling full of words

2006-09-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

hey peeps... how have ya all been..?? i've been fine lately.. trying to catch up on my readings and assignments...
anw, it's the start of the mid term break.. hope that everyone is coping fine with schoolwork.. dun be like me.. lagging far far behind... went to the library to study today... was all alone in the library studying until someone joined mi.. we have met to study together.. as usual i'm still tongued-tied.. haha... anw, did accomplished something today.. finished 2 readings and about to finish the 3rd one... haha.. feel a slight sense of achievement...
haha.. jiayous wor..!!!

Loves,
Qianfu :)

random post

2006-09-22T01:57:00.000+08:00

i'm supposed to be sleeping now but i cant sleep!!! argh.. haha... so i've decided to blog instead...

"Life's like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you will get"

Forrest Gump

this is a famous quote from the film "Forrest Gump". hmmm... actually this show is at least 10 years old already yet this phrase will nvr be erased from my mind. i've been eating alot of chocolates since the start of the new semester. and i've got quite a few flavours already... there's the BLUE one, GREEN one, GREY one, the happy one. just to name a few...
anyway, this week has been quite eventful.. haha... i've managed to complete my assignments on time and i was like studying in the library for the past 2 days... i'm quite amazed as this is the first time in this semester that i had actually studied.. haha.. however, these do not sum up this happening week... someone also contributed to this happiness and i'm glad that i've got to noe this person better.. haha.. and i've managed to work on saturday... my first job in almost a month.. i'm so happy.. never been so happy to work before.. haha..
hmm... think this roughly sums up my week and oh ya!!! i'm going for sushi buffet tml!! haha.. damn happy la...

*i've got a lastest craze: those retro rock and roll music* haha

loves all of you!!!
(: Qianfu :)

an interesting test

2006-09-19T01:58:00.002+08:00

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

Some immediate thoughts

2006-09-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

hi pple... actually i dun wish to blog today one as i've got a history test tml... haha... but there's this strong urge for me to blog...
ever since the start of soci camp in july, i've made alot of new frenz as well as strengthen my frenship with my current frenz... then came o week... i've made even more new frenz and have one whole group of freshies under mi... i was veri happy that i'm able to know them and work together during o week... some of the new frenz i've made are Xiaofen, Pei Yong, Jing Heng, Weilong, Yeng Hong, Ernest, Leanna, Weida, Alex, Kit, Meiyi, Eileen, Kay, Carrie, Eric and alot alot more... and i've got to build up on the bond of several frenz like Mish, Amy, Ivan Chen, Gina, Wanling, Layz, Jingyi, Jing Jun, and etc...
so what's the point of telling all these?
in my opinion, i feel that through these camps, i've really made alot of frenz and i've told myself that i will be more active in participating in the future activities organised by the arts club.. as i've been MIA-ing for alot of arts club activities organised by the 26th MC... however, i'm quite sad to say that i may not participate in them for this year anymore as i'm quite disappointed with the election results and the new committee doesnt seem friendly to me...
i've attended the last activity organised by the 26th MC which is the AGM... i was flooded with memories when they are going through the projects done by them... images of layz getting mi to help her in Food Hunt, jj to ask mi to join in the bike quest, jingyi to tell mi to come down for rag, and rabbit asking mi to help him in his projects.. all these flooded mi... n always, i replied them with a flat refusal... n thinking back, i really shouldnt have done it... and juz when i'm trying to more active, everyone seems to be quite pessimistic n passive about the 27th MC...
thus, i made this effort to attend this veri last event by the 26th MC and i'm quite sad that they are stepping down... the previous year holds alot of memories for me... from being a freshie, like a blur cock on the first day of o week 05, to being an OGL, leading my og throughout the whole o week... i will not forget all these things...
thanks to the 26th MC for giving me such wonderful memories and such a fulfilling experience to me... thanks alot!!!!

Love,
Qianfu :)

Stuffed up

2006-09-15T02:18:00.000+08:00

hi pple... it's late into the night already and i'm still up blogging.. haha...
anw, i'm kinda feeling moody.. i dunno why also... i'm feel like i have alot of things to say but yet, i cant find anyone to tell.. the feeling is really very hard to bear... feel like i'm going to blow up any moment...
these few days, everyone have been syndroming... everyone is playing hide and seek and i seldom see them ard in sch at all... the only few that i keep seeing these few days are Ivan, Bobby, and Xiaofen... i dunno where are the rest... it's kinda hard to see them or wad...
argh..!!! i'm feeling veri grouchy... i shant vent my anger anymore... i'll go to sleep... hopefully tomolo will be a better day... nitez...
and pls dun take my comments seriously...

Events for the day...

2006-08-31T02:35:00.000+08:00

hi... i'm quite happy today as well as quite disappointed... hmm... let mi start with the nice happy stuff first...
i met up with some old frenz for the first time in a year... it's been a long long time since we can get to sit down together and lunch.. it's been the best experience since the start of the semester... really very happy.. we even went on to creat a yahoo group specially for gossiping and talking crap.. haha... i'm so excited!!! got to catch up with alot of them this time and we were like talking non-stop throughout the whole lunch... we ordered alot of food... and had alot of desserts and calamari!! haha... so exciting, la la la la lalala!!
now for the not-so-happy stuff.. today, i was quite disappointed at the freshies' responses.. when i asked them to come for the welcome tea, they were so reluctant to appear... like after a few times of trying to ask them out or wad, and the replies are either so reluctant or straight refusal at my face... and their reasons are always the same, "i wan to mug." i mean come on la.. it's juz the first few weeks of the semester and they are already mugging like crazy... i'm totally shocked... but guess it's natural ba... haiz.. dunno wat to say also...
it's life man...
nites pple...

The Gap

2006-08-29T14:39:00.000+08:00

finally back after some time.. had been busy recently due to alot of stuff... there are readings, projects, outings, celebrations and the most important of all, exercise regimes.. i've got totally no chance to read anything... i'll reach home at around 10 plus to 11 in the night and i'll feel damn tired by then... apparently, my mind isnt tuned to studying yet... help mi...
recently, the gap seemed to be too wide to be bridged... internal strife and previous incidents had further widen it... maybe it's a wrong decision to try to make things work initially cuz i feel that instend of helping to solve matters, the matters seem to be aggravated... what can be done to correct this situation?? i've tried my best and i'm in a lost for solutions right now... things are getting complicated and people are getting involved... haiz... it's really a heart-wrenching thing to see things turned out this way..
if only i can reverse time, things may not turn out this way... i'm so troubled... will i be able to see the fond memories back again???

2006-08-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

hihihihihi!! i'm back from the future... haha.. have been missing for the past few weekks....
juz finished O week recently....!! it's really damn fun!!! i'm an OGL during the O Week..
it's my first time being an OGL.. n i'm really lost during the first day... luckily, Justin n Dicky came to my rescue... they helped mi alot during the camp...
i've really learnt alot from camp... alot of precious lessons to be remembered forever....
first of all... MANY MANY MANY THANKS to all my councilors n house ics.. they are jeremy, jiayan, wanling, layz, zhiwei, dicky, justin, pearline, angelin, vanessa, esther, bobby, and james!!! a million thankz to all of ya... U guys have been great!!!
during this camp, i've gotta know alot of new frenz... like yanhong, meiyi, jessica, weilong, weiquan, xianglong, kit, theresa, joshua, doris, evelyn, alex, leanna, ernest, xiao xuan, amanda, an hong, caleb, jonny, and alot alot more... all of them have added alot of colours to my life now... really thankz to them... they have made my first o week even more memorable..
n my OG- Taligate!!! the freshies are so enthu and out-going..!! i've got pple like felicia, harrison, aaron, serene, serena, ying yin, grace, jian sheng, natalie, xiao wen, shiqi, shuhui... thankz for all the enthusiaism and everything... U guys ROCKS!!!!
once again... thankz for everything guys... U guys rocks n T house rocks too!!!

2006-07-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

hi peeps!!! the theme for the day will be "FISH"... haha... y FISH? i dunno y.. it's a word that a fren of mine gave mi... ok.. let's get started...
first, we talk abt the literal meaning... a FISH is an aquatic creature that lives in the water (that's lame though ;p ).. how abt looking at the other side of fish?
there's a kind of fish called the lung fish.. it can stay in the water as well as staying alive during drought periods... this can be compared to a human... for lung fish, its natural habitat is the water but yet it can stay alive during drought periods as well.. so if u compare it to a human, the water is our comfort zone n the land refers to the areas outside the comfort zone... so at times we may be required to step out of our comfort zone whether willingly or not... it's part n parcel of life that u'll need to step out of it n face the reality..
so come on pple... instead of hiding in ya own comfort zone, why not try to step out of it n face the music?? it's always better to try to solve the problem instead of hiding from it... hiding is juz a stop-gap measure but solving it is eternal... so come on pple, if ya been staying in ya comfort zone, maybe it's time to step out of it?? juz like the lung fish, it has to come out of the water whether willingly or reluctantly...
eh.. this blog entry is not directed at anyone... it's juz a passing thought of mine.. hope that it may be some help to those who are troubled... cheers!! :)

2006-07-24T02:22:00.000+08:00

hi pple.. i'm back again... decided to blog since i cant get to sleep.. haha..
today was quite interesting.. i went to visit my BELOVED nephew..!! he's so cute... and i simply love ka jiaoing him... haha... here's a peep at him...
that's him... so cute rite?? haha... juz managed to take this photo when he's staring at my hp... if not, it's almost impossible to take a photo of him using hp.. haha... he's so adorable.. and one of his pet moves is to 'eat' his fingers.. haha...
anw, i dunno wat to say anymore.. no more inspiration... haha.. nites peeps...!!!

2006-07-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

zzzz.... i'm practically lacking the motivation to do anything... haiz... doing the same old routine everyday... play games either on my PS2 or lappy, eat, sleep... haiz... i'm quite a boring person ah.. haha.. that's wat i think too... everyone seems to be occupied with stuff but yet here i am, wasting my life away...
i MISS school!!! how i hope that it will start tml... so at least my life wun be so plain and monotonous... i miss the days that i'm in sch.. memories flooded mi....
from the day i started sch 1 year ago... i've gotta noe the Sashimiz... from then on, my life's been colourful till now... it's been a fulfilling year in NUS... at first i thought that i wun be able to survive in Arts cuz i'm a sci student all along... but well, 2 years of army had dulled my brain... so i had to start all over again... at first, it was quite a cultural shock as i've nvr been exposed to so much english before... in my world, it's always mandarin, singlish, and hokkien... haha.. n it's quite hard to get the studying mood back after 2 years of army life... so i kinda struggled for the first sem...
then to sem 2, i've decided to abandon my aim of majoring in Econs cuz i suck at it... thus, for some strange reason, i majored in Sociology... but till now, i havent regretted this decision as i really enjoyed the modules alot... it's due to soci that i'm able to see things in a different perspective... then here i am now... going to start my second year in uni... haha
University life really made mi 'grow' alot... i've got a bunch of frenz ard and they are like trying to correct my wrong behaviour n habits... and now, i dare to say that i'm a different person... however, life's not a fairy tale... things arent smooth-sailing too... i've been through ups and downs and highs and lows... anw, think i'll end here ba... it's getting long too...
lastly, thankz to all my frenz who had given mi all the beautiful memories and life will be much better this year...!! cheerios..!!! :)

2006-07-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

hey peeps... i'm back..!!! muahahaha!!! juz came back from soci camp... i can swear that it's damn fun..!!! however, i dun really get to enjoy it to the fullest due to my stupid leg... acted up on the second day if the camp... damn..!! resulted in mi being station ics for most of the games and neglecting my OG... sadz...
on the other hand, i've made alot of frenz during the camp..!! like my OG Suri, the Opto guys n girls, and the main comm pple and councilors... eg, matt, kumar, yvonne, bianca, etc... n through this camp, i have also gotta know alot of pple better... like zhi yong, charz, swi, amy, mich, etc.. haha... thankz to all of the pple who have made soci camp a success and cheers to all of ya..!!!!
thankz for my OG for their cooperation!! they are the perpetually hungry KELLY, the forever stoning CLARYCE, the more normal JOANNE, and the quiet guys CLEMENT and KENNETH and the hyperactive ZHI YONG..!! thankz to all of ya..!! and CHEERS for Suri!!!
YEAH!!! i'm damn happy la...!! haha...
through this camp, i've also gotta catch up with some of the Sashimi's pple like Layz, Jing Jun, Alison, Pear, Angelin, etc... hope our friendship will last...!! FRENZ 4EVA!!!

2006-07-01T16:03:00.000+08:00

hey peeps...
i'm back from in camp training already... was damn tired for the past week.. though it's a bit tiring, i've enjoyed the whole process nevertheless.. the moment i stepped through the camp gates on monday, memories flooded my mind.. all the good times and the bad times.. well... going back to camp also provides a respite from the busy civilian life i've been leading since 1 year ago.. i'm back in the tranquility and serenity of the camp...
the first day is quite slack... juz lazed around and draw out our masks and my suit.. then came the highlight of the day.. which is the dreaded IPPT ( my nemesis since pri sch) the results were clear.. which is a failure.. haha.. but yet i'm still quite happy as i managed to complete my 2.4km run without stopping( but i still failed the running). haha
the second, third and fourth days were generally refresher course.. update us on the new equipment and then go thru the drills... on thursday, we went through the smoke training activity.. which is to go into a room filled with tear gas and complete some drills before we can go out... ermm.. i can say that it's quite fun now la, though i hated it in the past as all of us are damn slack.
here comes the finale on friday... went for a 4km MOPP 4 route march.. to those who doesnt noe, MOPP 4 is actually a level of protection wearing a chemical suit, mask, gloves and overboots. it's been a long time since i've walked 4km.. but i'm still required to complete it.. upon completion, it was damn cooling when we removed our suits and the mask... and my sweat is dripping like a tap.. haha.. went for happy hour in the afternoon and topped it off with a parade at the end of the day.. then HOME SWEET HOME!!

2006-06-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really wonder why muz the pandora's box be opened.. it brings with it sorrow, despair, and all the negative feelings.. how nice will the world be without all these troubles..? haiz.. but come on, lets face the music.. it's part and parcel of life that these happen, juz that they came earlier than i've expected... so in the beginning, it's already a wrong decision yet we choose to walk on.. come on, let's snap back to the reality and try to get things patch up..
i've been missing for the past 2 weeks due to laziness... i'm juz lazy to update my blog.. hee.. but anyway, i've been working also la.. so not fully due to laziness also.. haha..
i went for the JJ's concert last nite... it's damn good..!! at first i juz think that's since it's free, might as well go, but after the first part, the atmosphere is slowly building up... i could feel the passion and the warmth from the fans as well as JJ himself... the climax is when he's singing the zhi dui ni shuo, and he juz broke down in front of everyone.. that was damn touching la.. i dun noe why he cried, i juz found it veri touching... now i'm crazy over his songs.. haha..

2006-06-02T02:58:00.000+08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	4.7
Mind:	5
Body:	5.3
Spirit:	5
Friends/Family:	3.5
Love:	0.7
Finance:	4.2
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

2006-06-02T02:18:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. wat shld i say..?? was filled with thoughts when i decided to blog... but apparently, all the words juz seemed to disappear from my mind.. haha.. well then, i'll juz crap ard here...
ha.. life's plain for mi... nothing special even though i'm working throughout this month... it's juz a crap period of time to go through... seeing a few of my friends going broke and i juz cant seemed to help.. how i wished i'm able to help them...
seriously, i think my memory is falling mi soon...veri soon think i'll forget abt everybody.. ha.. it ain't a joke.. i can even forget abt bringing a book out when i've juz thought of it a moment ago.. nah.. guess i'm getting senile... ha
but anyway, i've juz watched the entire series of american pie.. it's a damn good show... though i din laugh at all (as it's supposed to be a comedy), i find the show quite interesting.. it talks abt how a grp of guys graduate from high sch n how they eventually find the loves of the lives.. haha.. it's really good.. 5 stars to it.. cheers to the show... yeah..!!
guess i'll stop my nonsense for now.. ha.. in case ya get real bored from reading it... cya peeps.. miss all of ya..!!!! good luck..

2006-05-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

silence is golden... that's especially true when people are stressed up n the only thing that u can do to help is to keep quiet... hencefore, by not speaking, u can indirectly help a person to solve a problem... communication is veri important in an relationship, be it in work or in love.. effective communication is important everywhere...
dunno wat to add liao... hee... feel free to add comments...

some food for thought

2006-05-25T02:12:00.000+08:00

it's just so hard to get people to come out. no matter how hard, it's always impossible to get the whole group of them to meet up. things will just crop up somehow. haiz...
life's been plain ever since the vacations have started. nothing special and interesting happened ever since. it's just monotonous. i've been watching "Bleach" for the past few days and i've came across one episode where the captain of a squadron used his vice-captain in order to kill his enemy.. to the extent of risking her life... and he cant be bothered to care for her as she serves no more purpose... this sets me wondering.
why are there people who will view their close ones as tools? since when their comrades are viewed as tools to be called upon? apparently, i think these people are being void of the emotion of brotherhood. they are comrades in arms who had fought countless of battles together and yet, one is able to sacrifice another in order to achieve his personal goal of defeating the enemy... is this the selfish side of humans?
apparently, this thought also struck me. when faced with danger, will i be prepared to go through the ordeal with my comrades or will i choose to sacrifice them in order to survive? truthfully, i cant answer it. no one can foresee wat he/she could do in times of great perils...
this also happens in modern times and they are evident in everyday life.

(nothing to type...)

2006-05-14T02:09:00.001+08:00

hey pple... everyone's seemed to 'vanish' after the exams... cant even see them online... let alone in person.. haha... been quite relaxed these few days... continuing my rot at home n doing nothing.. haha..
to mi, the week only starts when the weekends are approaching.. cuz i'll be working during the weekends n that's the only time of the week that i'll be busy.. haha... other than that, i'm veri free... so peeps, feel free to ask mi out or wat.. haha...
been staying at home during the weekdays... cuz i dun wanna spend too much money as i'm running dry... going to become bankrupt le.. progress package is going dry too.. haha... i'm such a spendthrift... but i dunno y... haiz..
these few days are veri happy for mi... something has happened... n it makes my week.. hee... anyway, ya.. i'll jiayou for my work... yeah... gotta earn more money... haha...
i've also got a job offer from sheila... be a driver n deliver goods for her father.. the pay is good n so are the hours.. the only thing that's holding mi back is the driving... cuz i haven't drove for ages.. and i'm not even sure if i can drive.. haha... anyone can advise mi..?? i really feel like taking up the job leh.. shld i...???

Days of my life...

2006-05-11T01:48:00.000+08:00

life had never been so slack before... i'm going to become a fossil at this rate... going to become wang4 fu1 shi2.. haha...
my life is damn plain now... often sleep until noon...
4am-12pm: sleeping time
12pm-5pm: gaming time with PS2
5pm-10pm: going out time
10pm-2am: dota time
2am-4am: dvd time
and the routine goes on..........
this goes on and on....
damn sian now... haiz... it's even plainer than those ah peks doing nothing...
the only time that i'm busy is during the weekends where i go to work.. other than that, i'm rotting at home... think i shld go get a decent job soon... haha... nite pple...

sian weekend...

2006-05-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

hi pple... i'm down with fever now... my head is splitting... ARGH...!!!
i'm feeling so bad yesterday... i pang sei jeremy n alison last min for tennis... so sad... i've been looking forward to this day but then something had to crop up in the last min. i was asked to go to town to collect a van for my bro-in-law. after collecting, i thought that i'll be able to go back, however, i ended up doing the delivery for him... causing mi to miss the tennis date with alison n jeremy... n she's damn pissed with mi... i'm really sorry...
in the nite, i went to marina south for dinner with boon hao n sheila... then we went to MOS without sheila... instead, we met up with anna n her friends... MOS was damn fun n big... it's a pity that it's too crowded... haiz... nevertheless, i've thoroughly enjoyed myself last nite... haha...
i went to work today.... feeling damn sick when at work.. tried asking pple to replace mi for tml, but to no avail... so i've got no choice but to go to work myself... sobz... hopefully i'll be well tml... nite pple...!!!

post exam party..!!!

2006-05-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

YEAH..!!! exams are OVER...!!! haha... was damn happy that the exams are over... i've been enjoying myself for the past few days and spent quite a bomb... haha
went to watch Mission Impossible III yesterday... it's damn nice.. (though i nvr watch the first n second one).. maggie q is damn sexy la... walau... also vomit blood when she walked out of her lamborgini in the show... haha... then i went to Gina's (my long lost sec sch fren) bbq, i felt so strange out there... din really noe alot of pple there... haiz... luckily there's a few that i noe...
today... went to JB... however, i nvr buy any chiong dvd... haha... so guai rite..? went there to shop with ling, pear and angelin (jeremy pang sei us..)... then ate vegetarian food for dinner... it's damn nice lor... haha...
and here i am... back home with aching legs... i've gotten myself a few boxes of bubble gums... yeah...! haha...

Exams!!!!! Exams!!!!! Exams!!!!

2006-04-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

it's the exam period now... and i'm currently in the midst of exams.... hmmm... confidence level is not high this time round...

Marketing was ok... was quite glad that my CA was good...

for Psychology.. one word can summarise my feelings... "LIAO" that's the word! haha... to think i've studied quite hard for it and in the end, all came to nought... haiz... once i flipped open the booklet, every question is foreign to mi and i'm practically staring at that paper for quite some time... but anyway, it's already over n i shldnt cry over spilt milk... juz hope that i can pass... haha...

to everybody...!!! jiayou ba.... exams are finishing soon.... we'll meet up after the grueling exams... :)

some thoughts...

2006-04-10T21:09:00.000+08:00

i dunno why am i blogging when i shld be study now... haiz.. haha.. i juz feel the urge to let noe some thoughts in my mind...
went 光明山 yesterday to 扫墓... was quite reluctant to go at first, but thinking that i shld learn some of the traditional practices, i juz went for it... i'm quite glad to go at first, but on learning that all my clik of cousins are not going, i'm quite sianz... in fact i'm the youngest one there... feel so bored... thus i tagged along my mum whereever she went.. haha.. they proceeded with the '拜拜' session... the whole place was damn packed and there are a lot of families there 拜拜 also... everyone was under a large tentage in which rows n rows of tables were laid and pple are to find a place there and place their offerings, incense, etc... everything was like mass-produced and was facilitated to such convenience.. even the burning of the offerings was facilitated by the Bangla workers there... i was struck by a thought: “religion has been changed to such a point where there is no significance in worshipping and there is no spiritual attachment already. everyone is juz going thru the motions and did wat is expected of them." i'm no exception... also influenced by the norms and expectations of society..
then i went up to place where the temple housed the ashes of the deceased. the place was designed as such: the first level are those cheap cheap kinds in which their ashes are places in a urn n were juz stacked rows n rows n columns n columns and were put in glass cabinets. and the whole level is not air-conditioned and according to my mum, the cost for putting the ashes at this level is $500.
then i went up to the 5th level to 拜拜 my grandparents. upon reaching there, i feel cooler.. the place was airconditioned. the ashes are placed in small little 'cubicles' (which is much better than the ones in the 1st floor) and there is a colour code attached to each cubicle. each colour code indicates the categories which 'they' will live in. n the prices range from $3800 to $15000! that's so expensive to place the ashes... haha.. i was so shocked when i heard that... i'll rather 'stay' in the Mandai columbarium when i died in future... haha.. a waste of money to 'stay' there.. haha..
i supposed that's all i wanna say... haha.. feel free to tag n niao at mi... ya most welcome... haha.. bye peeps!

back...

2006-04-08T01:27:00.000+08:00

hey pple, i'm back le.. have been quite busy for the past few weeks.. rushing projects, essays n studying for test... haiz.. exams are coming le.. sianz...
anyway, we celebrated pearline's birthday last week (abit lag ah).. on saturday.. haha.. they came to my house n play mahjong till evening in which i 'donated' money.. haha.. then we went makan at shaw tower.. it's the first time i'm eating vegetarian italian food and it's quite delicious.. haha.. will go back n eat it again.. after which we went to the esplanade.. we try 'spitting water' again but then due to the lack of lighting, we cant take the photos... so sadz.. gotta go back again to do it.. then we went to a place to chill out...
the last destination was Taboo... haha.. i havent been there for quite some time liao and the place was as great as before...!! finally gotta meet ben n chatted with him the whole nite.. finally got the chance to catch up with him since the beginning of the semester.. we've got some funny photos taken and the whole atmosphere is veri relaxing... yup yup.. we chill there until the wee hours n then... home sweet home.. haha...
now, it's back to the stressful days.... exams are approaching le... and there is alot of preparation work to do (cuz i havent started revision).. haiz.. juz finished the psy mid terms today... i've got high hopes when i stepped out of the LT, but upon reaching the canteen, my hopes were dashed... now, i juz hope to pass the paper... haiz...
in the evening, i went for my EA outing... it's my first time eating steamboat with no soup base... haha.. we juz poured water in n then added some seasoning n left it to boil.. haha.. that's quite unique.. the outing was quite good though we onli had a few pple going... the present ones are boon hao, sheila, anna, zhenzhu, yan ze n mi.. haha.. though it's a small group, i've gotta noe them better le.. haha.. it's really fun.. hope to have such outing again...
haha.. it's getting late le... i've gotta end off here liao... maybe going to sleep le.. cuz i've gotta work tml... sianz... haha.. nites pple... :)

2006-03-27T00:17:00.000+08:00

haha.. went to tour singapore on sat.. haha.. mi, ling n peishan went to do field research for our project n we went to chinatown, esplanade and merlion park.. while doing our research, we are also having fun at the same time (as u can see from the pic). in this pic, i'm drinking water from the merlion... aha.. was quite hesitant when taking this pic cuz there are alot of tourists ard.. haha.. n true enough, a tour guide walked past us n was laughing at us.. but we were too amused to care what that tour guide was laughing about.. the 3 of us kept on laughing n laughing as if we are in our own world.. haha..
in this pic, i'm the merlion... haha.. vomiting water out from my mouth... haha.. everyone' s got their own pictures.. haha..
this is the pic that we took together... i kinda look quite comical in it.. haha.. but then it's the only grp pic we've taken.. so no choice.. juz put it up.. haha...
i find this picture quite beautiful... can see the difference in the colours of the horizon as well as the majestic merlion spitting water out.. haha.. guess that'll be all for the singapore explorer.. haha.. anyway, this weekend is quite fun-filled.. n today, i played with my nephew for the whole day.. he's so cute... ah... guess i'll complete the rest later... got no time now.. going to edit my project.. haha.. bye peeps...

a refreshed spirit....

2006-03-23T02:47:00.000+08:00

i'm back pple.. haha.. been out for quite some time due to deadlines... anyway, i'm glad to blog again.. juz managed to finish my psychology lab report... haha.. so proud of myself.. havent been getting inspiration to do my work for quite some time liao.. anyway, here's a brief summary of these 2 weeks..
last week... i dunno wat i'm doing leh... haha.. forgotten about it liao... pple who noe mi well enough should noe the reason... haha..
this week.. handed up my soci essay on mon and until today, i've juz realised that the deadline is flexible... haha.. today shld be the last day lor... hai mi to rush like siao during the weekends.. then today, i'm veri happy.. went out with van n lloyd, jer, pear, ling, and angelin. we r supposed to watch a movie... but then we were late n we missed the show.. haha.. we settles for dinner at kfc n then juz talked cock there.. haha.. it's been quite sometime that we went out together... was quite glad to go out today though there are deadlines yet to be met.. haha..
for my ea class, i'm quite amazed that our class can gel quite well despite noeing one another for less than 6 months.. haha.. it's really amazing.. i've got sistas from the class too... haha.. as well as some from my type of culture... like boon hao, n co.. haha... i'm glad to noe all of them... haha..
for some strange reasons, i'm starting to revert back to my old self, with all those hokkien n crude words coming out my mouth... i wanna stop this... i'll try my best to shut up.. haha..
anyway, that's all for today.. lazy to type on liao... going to find a blogskin now.. haha.. nites everyone..!!! :)

sick and tired of everything

2006-03-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

this week's damn sian... got lots of deadlines to meet and lots of essays to do... haiz... uni life sux man... i'm going crazy over them liao... scratching my head until i'm bald.. haha.. i'm supposed to do my lab report now.. but my instincts direct mi to the website... haha.. no mood to continue further liao.. haiz.. my life's in such a mess... gotta juggle bet work and sch... damn tired... wat to do... money is the most impt thing in the world now..

changed my blogskin...

2006-03-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

hey pple... i've changed my blog skin... but then this is not the one i wan... i'm trying to find one nice one... in the meantime, there's no tagboard.. so sorry.. juz msg mi if ya wanna tag.. my hp will be my tagboard.. haha...