A screwed-up night...
it's amazing at how drastic my mood can change in a night... from a flamboyant mood, i've reverted back to my fucked-up attitude in the past... back to the 'Qianfu' who always showed people a fucked-up face and attitude... haiz.. wat has happened tonight..?? y my life is so screwed up once again..?? i've lost all hope in life and i'm feeling veri miserable now... i've compromised everything and did everything possibly to please her.. but somehow or rather, they are not reciprocated... all i wanted is just a little bit of care and concern.. she may not think much about those small little actions, but i do care... alright.. maybe because she's veri tired and feeling sick... maybe that's why she's oblivious to my actions and feelings... that must be the case.. haiz...dunno why.. i'm in a financial crisis every month since i've entered uni.. wat has gone wrong..?? wat kind of shit am i getting myself into..?? fuck...!!! i've been engaging with alot of phone quarrels with my mum lately about the 'sacred money' issue.. it's not that i dun wanna save up.. it's that i dun have the choice.. do u UNDERSTAND...???!!!
argh.... why the whole world dont understand mi..?? why am i always the one to be condemned, the one who always gets the blame....?? haiz... life really sucks... maybe i shouldn't even exist in this world in the first place.. always a burden to other pple n a nuisance to pple... my existence is juz redundant perhaps...
posted by ahfu @ 2:13 AM
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