Can I have a beer?
I know that you are caring for me but sometimes I just hope you understand that changes take time to take effect and I am making an effort. Nevertheless, I am glad that you are concerned about me. I am not trying to be funny or what when I repeat stuff. My memory is very bad and I am sure that you know it with your numerous encounters.A brief update of my life so as to let you know...
For the first time in eight years, I stepped into the library to borrow books. A special book was chosen by me and that is about Harry Potter (I can visualise your reaction) for Harry Potter is all I read. However, this is not about the usual childhood fantasies that you are imagining. It is about multidisciplinary perspectives of the book. I will tell you more when I managed to find the book as my reading speed is very slow.
It was just a simple meal and you are making it sound like it was some wedding banquet. And I know that you are caring for me but things are just not right. So there is no point pursuing something that is wrong.
Pressure is mounting from every direction and I hope you will understand from my nonchalant attitude shown to you as the same words are being repeated to me every single day. I hope that you will judge me based on myself and not based on others; for others' successes do not necessarily reflect my failure. And be rest assured that I am doing something about it.
And sometimes I think I hide it too well that you do not notice it. But I do find myself on other occasions just that I find it hard to express when I am with you for my various flaws.
That is all I have now and I wish that it is the last one for the many years to come.
posted by ahfu @ 1:55 AM
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