Reflections of a wretched life

What's wrong with the rest..??

heys.. i'm back again... i'm now in the central library alone waiting to attend my boring english lesson... school had started not long ago and i'm starting to feel sick of school.. haiz..
everyone seems to be engaged in something and i find it so hard to chat up with them.. seem veri out of place.. so i chose to keep quiet... and she kept asking mi wat's wrong with me.. i told her that there's nothing wrong and i'm puzzled why she keep asking... haha...
suddenly, i feel like shutting myself up and remain in my own world where there's neither pressure nor friendship.. just stay in there without any troubles and problems... having a lot of friends can be a problem too... you will feel lonely if everyone is busy as you will become dependent on them.. haiz..
life sucks big time... think i'll just maintain my normal lifestyle for the time being and continue to float through life till the day comes where i'm not alone anymore... hope the day comes soon... i'm going for my lesson liao... hope to blog again soon and thanks for 'listening' to all my grumbles... BYE..!!!

posted by ahfu @ 3:30 PM 0 comments

Problem is partially "solved"...

hey peeps... i'm back again... actually had no intention of blogging one... but then might as well do it since i'm not sleeping yet.. haha..
this week had been a dramatic week for mi... everything are beginning to show and are starting to change... it's the end of our honeymoon period and problems are starting to arise... it will be a real test of our patience and our determination to make this relationship work... both of us are trying our best to make things work.. and finally, the "ISSUE" have been partially solved however, with the solving of this problem, another problem arises... haha... there's no end to problems... haiz... having a headache... i'll just have to take a step at a time lor... haha...
anyway, i went to yanzi's concert last nite... it's fantastic... however, i no longer feel as fervent as last time... dunno why too... maybe i'm getting old for this... haha... it's definitely better than the previous one...
aiz.. dunno wat to write liao and my language is getting more and more incoherent.. think i'll juz end here and go to sleep... nite nite everyone...

posted by ahfu @ 1:01 AM 0 comments

School starts again...

hey everybody.. it's the beginning of a new semester again... haha... i had my first lectures today and it's really atrocious... horrible lectures... i juz dunno why everyone enjoyed the lectures except me... hmmm...
the family lecture was interesting.. however, when the lecturer was cracking some jokes, everyone is laughing their heads off except me.. i didn't even giggle... haha... think there's something wrong with my sense of humour.. haha..
haiz.. i'm going to work hard from today onwards and i've had a good beginning.. i went to the library early in the morning to photocopy readings..!!! that's something i wouldn't have done in the past.. haha.. so proud of myself... now, i've got a stack of readings to complete by tonight and i'm going out for dinner with esther... haha.. such a paradox..
anyway, think i'm not going to be involved in any arts club activities this semester.. gotta work hard to improve my grades.. hope to join back arts club during the orientation period... haha..
think i'll end here... gotta go off soon.. i guess... enjoy the new semester and may all of you have good grades at the end of the semester.. see ya in school then... BYE..!!!

posted by ahfu @ 8:00 PM 0 comments

a damn new year...

today's supposed to be a happy day.. but i'm feeling like shit now.. new year's eve is supposed to be a night of celebrating and chatching up with our frenz.. but apparently, i'm all alone at home playing some idiotic games and typing this damned blog...!!! fuck!!!
no one seems to remember my presence and all started after i've started work in early dec... no one asked mi out or anything.. haiz... all these shows my place in people's minds... such a damned night.. even she's not free to meet mi or wat... but i deserved it... she offered to meet mi but i refused.. asking her to go for her service... regretted this rash decision... and now.. i'm spending the new year alone... and staring into this stupid screen... FUCK!!!!!!!

posted by ahfu @ 12:52 AM 0 comments