If I were....
If I were a robot, my world will just consists of commands and orders, coded by the numerous symbols and equations. My world will be much simpler. I will be a tabula rasa where my owners are able to program me to do whatever they want me to do. Won't that world be more utopian?
There will be no feelings, emotions, alienation, anomie, friendships, love, family, and many many more. How I wish I could be him... in a world devoid of feelings and emotions.
At the dark side of life
These few days had been quite “sorrows”. For some apparent reason, I starting to feel so unconfident of myself and everything I did. Once again, I am slipping back to the old days that I’m perennially feeling down and out. Are things really going fine for me? Or is it that I chose to live in delusion? All the things that happened had set me thinking through my life…
As the date to graduation looms nearer, my future looks bleaker and darker by day. Oddly, people always think that graduation means freedom from all the loads of term essays and projects but things that lie ahead are worse. Instead of academic papers, you got to churn out reports and proposals and you are expected to perform to the very best due to the existence of the appraisal system. Mistakes are equated to deductions of marks and if you accumulate enough points, it’s out you go. Unlike the benevolent education system, if you made a mistake, usually, you will be given another chance. Wells, such is the harsh reality of the corporate world.
Confidence is seeping out slowly but significantly… L
Friendship vs Studies
Fulfilling my childhood fantasies… Life’s been plain-sailing and in fact, too plain that has causes to worry about especially with the exams just looming in a fortnight’s time. However, this time round, I felt a bit more motivated to study compared to previous years for some weird reasons which I don’t know. Probably, it can be due to the fact that this is my last semester in school or that I’m just used to exams. But this semester’s being relatively fun and exciting for me. One thing for sure is that I’d met up with friends that I have kinda neglected over the years, as well as consolidating friendships that I’d fostered recently. There are always opportunity costs like I’ve kinda underperformed for my studies, getting mediocre grades and neglecting my studies. Oh wells, I think I’m getting a bit incoherent here… Just a short post today as I really don’t what to write.
Cheerioss!
Can I dream???
Everyone had been through their childhood and often, during our primary school days, we were asked to write our dream and ambition. And indeed, we, as kids then, were allowed to dream of our future occupation and life. As we grow up, this prerogative was taken away from us. We are taught to be practical and dream of things that are within our limits. Usually, failure to do so will often lead to disenchantment or even rejection from peers. But aren’t we allowed to dream? Can we dream of something that is unachievable? Nevertheless, I do still hope that I can still dream as dreams bring me hope and hope brings life to me…
