a traumatised and horrible week..
hey dude, i'm back... this week has been a hectic week.. havent been blogging for some time.. due to the exams... thank god that it's finishing soon... haha..i'm going to have my last paper on monday and i hope that all goes well.. i've been slacking for the past few days and i've havent really done any reading at all... going to panic soon... haha... i hope that i can do relatively well for my exams.. as long as i can pass, i'm contented.. i'm going to pray hard.. haha..right now, she's sleeping by my side.. soundly like a dead log.. she cant even hear the loud typing sound i'm making right now.. haha.. she's been very sweet to mi today.. dedicated one whole paragraph for mi.. i'm so touched... cuz she had never dedicated so long a paragraph for mi.. the longest is 2 sentences.. haha.. but nvm, i'm veri happy to read her blog..she's sleeping rite now.. these few days have been tough on her.. having to study for her exams that are coming up on saturday and next week.. feel so sad for her as most of us r finishing our exams already... nevertheless, i'll stand by u to provide u with the strength and the courage to proceed with the rest of the papers.. persevere on, darling! we've been together for quite some time.. and i've truely known her better.. though she's a little easily irritated at times, she can be very sweet and adorable... despite me always irritating her with my nonsense and ka-jiaoing her all the times, she didnt even lose her temper and would play along with my lame jokes occasionally.. haha.. she've changed alot.. from the dainty little princess, to a out-going and fun-loving girl. she really put in alot of effort to learn to do things that she had never done before.. like changing of the bedsheets, and the traditional house-keeping chores.. all these small little things however, show all the effort she had put in to do them.. she's really a good housewife.. haha.. till now, i've never regretted my decision and i still hope that we can stay together forever.. she's such a babe... haha.. i'm going to sleep le.. so i think i'll juz stop here.. haha.. i shall continue next time.. gd nite... the exams are finishing..!! we'll go out after the exams.. hah.. cya til then...
Happy happy day...
today has been another long day for mi.. i've been studying in school today and i find that i dun really noe alot of stuff after having a discussion with the hai dais.. havent been seeing much of everybody since last week.. everybody seem to 'vanish' the moment the exams are nearing.. haha.. i think i die liao.. still got lots of stuff to do and yet so little time to finish all of them..anyway, today is a veri special day... guess wat..?? today marks the second month anniversary that we've got together... i wanted to meet her today but she not really willing to meet mi as she had made an appointment beforehand.. so nvm then.. i feel a little disappointed... however, an idea struck mi yesterday nite.. haha.. i'm going to give her a little surprise...so i went shopping for a card and bought her favourite Famous Amos cookies.. then i went to PGP and waited for her... then i ask layz to help mi to ask her out and i'll juz appear in front of her... everything went on smoothly.. though she was a little angry that i tricked her out, her anger subsided after hearing my explanation and upon receiving my gift.. haha.. had a short chat with her and i sent her back to her room.. i can tell that she's veri happy from the expression in her eyes.. and she's quite touched too... i'm so happy... no words can accurately describe my feelings today... wahaha... so so happy...!!that's all folks... initially, i dun wish to blog tonight one.. but i feel that i muz write down this happy moment and share my joy with everyone.. hence, i wrote it.. gd nite then... bbye...!!!
Disappointing and tired day...
hi everybody.. it's been a long day for mi today... woke up early in the morning to run an errand for my dad and was caught in a heavy rain.. in the end, i went home drenched and sianz.. upon reaching home, i tried to study a bit and went to clementi to meet tongyu to fix my SIM card which is spoilt last week... in the end, i waited for half an hour for him.. tried calling hongye for help but he never answered my call and i was in no man's land as i cant remember his number.. damn pissed.. but i endured everything.. went to the Hello shop in orchard and spent some time there to settle the admin stuff... and finally, my sim card is fixed.. i had an impulse to call her immediately.. but i noe that she wun answer my call, so i abandoned the idea.. had a nice chat with him.. feel like i'm back to the army days when we were chatting in starbucks.. really missed those days... after which, i rushed back to school for my consultation... then i received a call from her... and she said she cant meet mi tonight... i was dumb founded and said nothing... the thought of meeting her tonight has been my motivation for the whole day... i kept on enduring everything as i noe that i'm meeting her tonight.. but apparently, it's not going to come true.. was quite disappointed though it's not her fault... sianz...i went for my sociology consultation.. however, i dun have the mood to listen to Adi too.. i keep on asking him but i cant seem to get his points driven into my brain.. haiz... feels like it's a waste of time.. sianz... then i called Esther, asking if she wan to meet mi tomolo.. but she said no and i dun wish to say anything... i'm really disappointed today.. in no mood to do anything now.. but i muz force myself to study.. the exams are nearing.. haiz... veri sianz.. dun feel like doing anything now... i'm veri stressed ah...!!! AH.....!!!!!!!!! think i'm going to fail at least one module le... there's so much to do in such a short time... AH....!!!! fucking sianz today.. y today has been such an unlucky day...?? it's not friday the 13th wat.. how come i feel like shit today...?? really veri sianz... ah.. forget it.. i'm not going to think abt it anymore liao... gotta go and study le.. jia you ba, qianfu...!! persevere on...!! dun give up..!!
One fine day...
today have been a great day for me.. i've been staying in her room for the past week... haha.. but dun misunderstand... there are company everyday.. haha... so fun staying in her room.. with all those nonsense of mine and vanessa, there's practically plenty of laughter everyday.. haha.. we took alot of photos last night in her room.. so exciting.. haha.. i'm so exhilarated.. we went swimming with van today at mount faber safra.. we swam n enjoyed the jacuzzi together.. so interesting.. and we took photos by the pool side with all kinds of funny faces.. haha.. finally, the exam tea has came to an end... everything has settled down and i can finally study in full force.. actually, i'm feeling quite stressed too... the exams are nearing and yet we went out and enjoy... haha.. such irony... wahaha.. but i'm not going to indulge in all these pleasures for next week as i'm going to prepare for my exams.. though pple say that it's hard to fail in NUS, but i fear that i'l be one of those who will fail.. starting to panic now... anyway, that's all for now.. will keep on updating whenever there's time.. come on everybody.. we'll enjoy after the exams... but for now, let's all mug and work hard for the exams... jia you...
Confused... and i really do...
today had been an eventful day.. went out with her today.. and talk to her over the phone today... once again, we are still at the 'issue'.. she told mi alot of things... and all these sets mi thinking.. wat can i really do..?? i've changed so much for her... tried to cut down on my nonsense and stuff.. trying to be the one she's looking for... but there's one thing that won't changed: the fact that i'm a non-christian... read through her blog juz now and once again, i feel so useless.. i'm sure that i can fulfill all her needs, but there's one area that i can never help her in: her spiritual needs... the fact that i'm from a different yore sets mi away from her thinking.. i cant seem to reconcil our thinkings again.. cant seem to help her in any ways.. feel damn pissed by myself.. why am i a non-christian..?? wun everything be in place if i'm a christian..?? haiz... i'm veri CONFUSED..!!! after alvin had talked to mi that day, i thought that i've been enlightened by his words.. and i've told myself to try to experience it... i've already taken such a big step towards it.. and why am i not rewarded in any way..?? from the anti-christ mi, i've compromised alot already.. until now, i'm willing to step into a church because of her.. but i cant seem to experience Him... i'm exhausted from trying to reconcil everything... should i juz give up...?? or should i persevere on...?? i dunno.. let's hope that He can provide mi with the guiding light.. so that i'll be convinced that He really exists and will help mi...i'm really confused... haiz... nites everybody...
I'm back...
Hi peepz.. I'm back from chicken pox... wahaha... finally recovered after one week at home..cant wait to go back to sch... haha... for the past week... i've been slacking at home.. havent really got the mood to study yet.. however, i forced myself to study and finally, i've finished reading some readings from the soci course pack.. haha.. finally, after much procrastination... haha.. miss alot of activities for the past week and ha, i'm finally going back to sch next week... hooray..!! but the EXAMS are coming..!! everyone are busy mugging and hence, no outing for mi.. haha.. quite sianz.. hmm.. let mi give u a preview for next week.. from mon to wed, i'll be involved in the Exam Tea outside the central lib.. so feel free to patronize me for some freebies..!! after wed, i have got something veri impt to do.. may need to go to the hospital to visit my young nephew... haha.. for the past one week plus, i haven't been seeing much of her... so sianz.. luckily, thank to the invention of phones, we managed to keep in contact for the past one week plus.. thanks my dear, for taking care of me when i'm having fever.. really thankful of you.. finally, we are going to meet tomolo.. yeah..!! hope that we won't get separated again after that... that's all for now.. gonna chat with my dear le... talk to you all sometime later... bye..!!
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